Help me to discern. Why hasn’t God made anything clear to me? You deserve a child…God wants me to be with him…you’ll lead me to him. But at the same time, my deacon came up to me last night at the ECF class and said that he had been talking to my parish priest and said that they are both willing to “fast-track” me into the Church but only if I was certain I wanted to be a Catholic. Even despite all of the liturgies I’ve missed! That I really needed to experience the grace.
I’m not certain though and you’re partly the reason. Would you become a Catholic if I became a Catholic? Would you still be my Mother and visit me when I continue my studies? Would you still even be my Auntie? Mother, I know that everyone just wants to help but I need something that’s going to be permanent as I continue in my studies and you have provided that permanence to me so I am certain I want you in my life but I’m not certain about anything else!
The only thing God has made certain to me–by your permission as well–is that St. Michael is going to be my patron saint. I received an ikon of him last night.