The answer is “no”. It’s so wonderful that so many people have found a comforting home in a place that nourishes them spiritually but I have been malnourished spiritually. According to God, if I want to find him I must pursue him intellectually. This is his desire. It’s why he allowed me to be born to such parents. My mom doesn’t want me to make Christianity into this ritualistic process. My dad wants me to make Christianity scientific so as not to drive away atheists. This is what God wants me to do as well. I’m not at peace and I don’t think I’ll ever be at peace but God doesn’t want me to be in a state of peace.
This is why Mother’s prayers have not been answered. This is why Mother’s prayers will never be answered. I’m not at peace in my spirituality. My parents’ religion never provided peace and even if I do decide that I want to be a Catholic, my parents are simply going to assault that while “supporting” that any way they can. They don’t believe in demons. They don’t believe that’s been my trouble. They won’t believe these things. For them, Christianity is a non-stop search for God and to find rest at any point in your journey is preposterous. Keep growing and only through growing older can one come to better beliefs. This is the Christianity that God desires me to be tortured by all the rest of my life. Auntie just needs to deal with the fact that her so-called “God-of-love” doesn’t want me saved.