I pray earnestly and fervently for our re-unification but this relationship has regretfully become too much for me and I am now left wondering if I lost you even before this recent tragedy. I pray God fills you with humility and love for him and desire to be bound to Holy Church in the meanwhile. If we are meant to be re-united to each other, it is up to him entirely. Understand that I do not want to lose you and I continue to love you but our relationship is broken. It isn’t going to heal in a split second. And it is evident neither of us were ready to have it heal. Understand that I still believe you are my mother. Rifts often happen between parents and children and this is something we simply must accept for now. We have chosen different paths and only a miracle is going to re-unite us.